Where’s My KitKat Bar?

Ever need a break during a frustrating, pull your hair out moment? Yeah, me too. Actually, I just had one of those moments. Within the past 2 weeks things have changed in my life. Not for the bad, but the things that are happening due to the change can be frustrating. I’m learning people while learning myself. Sounds overwhelming, huh? Well, it can be if I do this within myself. But when I want to just scream and run away, God reminds me that I can do all things through Him. All I have to do is take His hand and let Him walk me through the somewhat difficult moments. When I do, I can feel the tension ease, and my heart beat slowly decreases. A smile invades my face and I feel stronger. And the plus side? I keep all of my hair. Lol. So when you find yourself needing a break in the midst of frustration, grab ahold Jesus’ hand. And walk with Him.


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Today’s affirmation

Today I will walk in forgiveness.

I will accept Gods forgiveness.

I will forgive others.

I will forgive myself.


““If you forgive those who sin against you, your heavenly Father will forgive you. But if you refuse to forgive others, your Father will not forgive your sins.”

‭‭Matthew‬ ‭6:14-15‬ ‭NLT‬‬

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Are you strong and courageous?

Are you being strong and courageous or are you being weary and unstable? This was a question for me first. I had to answer it when God brought me to Joshua 1:18. As I read, I realized that in my disobedience I am dying and those I’m destined to reach will die. Because God placed me strategically among people to bring deliverance and healing. And He’s done the same for you. So when we are being weary and unstable, the enemy is coaching us to stay as such. Why? Because if you are discouraged, you won’t walk strongly and courageous after the things God needs you to do. His will MUST be done in you. And not just for your sake, but for the souls you are destined to touch. No pressure. Because aren’t we just doing what God called us to do? So don’t be weary. Be strong. Be courageous. Be who God called you to be in Him.


“Whoever rebels against your word and does not obey it, whatever you may command them, will be put to death. Only be strong and courageous!””

‭‭Joshua‬ ‭1:18‬ ‭NIV‬‬

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Ephesians 5:1-20 Prayer

Jesus, help me to follow Your example. To walk in love at all times. Help me to sacrifice myself and give myself to others as You did for me on the cross. Please purify me; my heart, mind, body, and motives. Take out anything that isn’t like You. Help my words to be pleasing to Your ears. May they build up those I speak to and about and not tear them down. Help me to always be thankful. Jesus help me to keep You first and not put anyone or anything before You. Help me to be wise and walk according to Your guidance and wisdom. Keep my company honest and may they have good motives. Please teach me Your will so that I can walk it out obediently and live a righteous life. Keep me out of the company of those who are disobedient. Help me to have holy boldness and speak truth at all times. Jesus, thank You for every opportunity. Help me to make the most of them all. Fill me with Your Spirit. I need You. I thank You. In Jesus Name. Amen.


Ephesians 5:1-20

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Obedience Be Like…

You gotta be tired of living in your own will, right? Come down the road that leads to promise. Because your disobedience is keeping you from the finely paved road of milk and honey. No obedience means prolonged blessings. Because God can’t bless your will. So why are you still walking with my twice removed cousin. You rather be attached to the curse than the blessing? You rather live in struggle than the land of abundance? You rather walk in darkness than in the light of the Lamb? You rather be the boss than to humble yourself before the King? That’s lame. It really is. But you know what’s even more lame? You knowing the outcome of your disobedience and still doing things in your own will.


Joshua 1.

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That move the hand of God faith (I want it)

Faith walk. Faith talks. I slip. I fall. Because I took my eyes off it all. I believe what I can’t see. Until someone comes and gives their opinion. When I listen, I must remain prayerful. They can’t see my vision. So if I let their word in, I slip. I fall. No more faith. Now it’s all based on what I see. There is no calculating when walking in Me(Christ). Trust and believe you are on the right path. Keeping going in Me. Keep growing in Me. What you see will not always be when you are walking with Me. Faith walks. Faith talks. Getting moving.

But why??

Why do You love me like You do, Jesus?

Even when you see all that I do.

How can You look pass my faults?

Those things i intentionally walked into.

You tried to warn me and keep me focused.

But I slipped into sin again and again.

I caused my flesh to mute Your voice

The lifesaver and life’s Savior.

Jesus, this can’t be.

Again, how can You still love me?

I turned my back on You many times.

I don’t seek You all of the time.

I don’t fast to keep my soul on fire for You.

But I let this world replace my time with You.

I am so self absorbed.

All I see is me.

I’m too busy to stop and help others.

Send someone in place of me.

I am devoted to being selfish.

I live for the applaud.

No time to accept Your love.

I must go.  I gotta get there quick.

But honestly, I’m so sick.

I’m tired of stabbing You in the back.

You’ve given me plenty of chances.

Wait! Are You sure You don’t want Your love back?

I know I’m living my life whack.

It’s a complete mess without You.

But somehow I can’t find the words to come running back to You.

You deserve better.

You deserve more.

Yet You keep holding on.

Picking me up when I feel all hope is lost.

Jesus, why?

Please! Give up on me.

I have!

I’m not worth Your time and effort.

Go ahead and just walk pass.

But wait, You’re too good for that.

That wouldn’t be You. You’re not whack.

You aren’t lame.

You can’t be that.

You died for my sins. This is why You’ll take me back.

You love so freely and deeply.

Your death is a sign for me.

The greatest deed ever done.

I can’t lose. I’ve already won.

Because of what you did on the cross,

I can see why You won’t let me stay lost.

Thank You, Jesus for loving me.

Thank You for dying on Calvary.

You shed Your blood just for me.

So I won’t walk with my head down.

This frown is now a smile

Because I can see clearly.

How Your mercy and grace saved me.

So no more pity parties.

I accept what You have done for me.

Now I ask, Lord please.

Come into my heart and save me.

I LOVE YOU, TOO!

 

Help! I Need You!

You called me out in this ocean, but I’m sinking. Im trying to keep my head above the waves, but I’m failing. Keeping my eyes on You is a struggle. Because what I really want to do is scream. But I will keep it moving to reach the dream. I know I’m a little upset right now. I’ll cool it. But I can’t help but feel that I’m missing something. I have questions. Did I really hear You speak when You told me step out on faith? Did I really understand the responsibility that came next? Did I really comprehend the work ahead? I’m sorry. I sorry. I know these questions only came to mind because I’m aggravated. Just about over it. But I refuse to miss the promises that You have stored up for me. Although it’s hard to see. But I will press towards the mark that You set for the called and keep my mind set on things above. I’ll watch the words that flow from my lips and get the lessons that need to be learned. I won’t let the trials dampen my joy. I won’t speak based on what I see. I want more. I’ll stand on Your word. I will create the world I want to live. I believe You and will continue to give. Because You aren’t a man that will lie. I will trust You Lord with all of my heart until the day I die. Help! I need You, Jesus!!

Faith-A Road Worth Walking

I remember all to clearly. The day that I was diagnosed with high blood pressure was the day my life changed for the better. Better?! Yes, better and you’ll see why in a moment. 
Before I was diagnosed, I dealt with headaches, migraines, and dizziness. I was sleepy all of time. I was nauseous. And my entire body just seemed out of whack. All of this came to mind as I sat in the hospital. Hours before my visit to the ER, I left church feeling dizzy, nauseated, and faint. I had no idea what was going on. A nurse that happened to go to the church took my blood pressure and told me that it was very high and that I should go to the hospital. At that time, I lived in NY. I was in the city at the moment and did not want to visit the ER there. So my friend drove us home to Westchester and I went to the hospital there. The doctor confirmed what the nurse told me, I had high blood pressure. He advised me to see my doctor. I went for a follow up visit with my primary care physician and she wrote me a script for meds to control my pressure. At the time, I really didn’t think anything of it. I actually accepted this and thought, “well if this is what I have to do, I’ll do it.” 
Let’s pause for a moment and look at what was just written, “I accepted it.” I had no idea how much I was hurting myself by accepting these words. I had no clue at the time that I had the authority to speak to my body nor did I grasp the real meaning of faith and what it could do for my life. Accepting the words of the report I received canceled the word of God. It caused me to remain stuck and therefore affected my walk with Christ. For the Bible says, “without faith it’s impossible to please God.” Impossible. I wasn’t pleasing God at all. 
Ok, let’s resume. I started to take the meds. I didn’t feel any better though. Mind you, this part of my life was very tense. I was living an unhealthy lifestyle both mentally and physically. My diet was terrible. I was always stressed. I didnt workout. Well…to sum it all up, I didn’t like life. I didn’t want to live. (that’s another story for another time). 
Fast forward 7 years or so…April 2017. This was the month that I decided that I was going to come off of this medication. I really just woke up one day and decided to trust God to do it for me. Not only did I want to trust Him, I was now living a much MUCH healthier lifestyle than I was in NY. So now I had to see my dr because I wanted to do it the right way. I told her my plan, that my diet was healthier, and my workout schedule. She gave me the ok and suggested how to come off. Then she proceeded to say, ” don’t get discouraged if it doesn’t work. This is hereditary so It may not.” I rejected her words. I know she had to advise me as my doctor, but I refused to accept that this would be my reality. I refused to allow anyone to limit God…including me. 
Let me say this. Since I made the choice to accept God word for my life and was healed, I have ran into a few people with illnesses. Some were Christian’s, some weren’t. They felt that they HAD to have whatever they did because it was hereditary. They accepted that they had to live with the illness forever because Aunt Sue and grandfather BoBo suffered with the same. NO!!!!!! I am a living witness that God heals. If you just believe, Amy is possible! But my point is, God used my testimony of healing to witness to them. This is the coolest part to me. For me to tell of Gods faithfulness and promises is a delight. Bringing Him glory is my main focus. 
Ok, now that I had a plan, my journey could begin! I was on 2 meds and I just KNEW I would be off of them in a month. My mind was made up. My faith was up. I was prepared to tackle this illness and give it my all. My doctor recommended halving the meds along with healthy eating and exercise. The first week was a breeze. Normal readings all week. Week 2, the same. “Oh I have this in the bag for sure. Thank You Jesus. ” Week 3/4 a little unstable, but nothing to worry about. Week 5, high. 
Week 5 took me for a loop a little. But I knew that the medication had to fully get out of my system. So I won’t sweat it. It will come down for sure. And you know what, it did. Aye!! (this is when I did my happy dance.) 
I don’t get comfortable though. I am prepared to do whatever it takes to keep a normal reading. Even if this means cutting out foods I love and going to the gym allllll of my life. I’m ready. 
So here I am celebrating success, Normal readings, and of course my God! 
Then…BOOM!!! My pressure started to raise again. It started to increase the beginning of the week and gradually got higher. Let pause here for a moment. Think about it… here I am putting my faith out there AND doing my part and you mean to tell me my pressure is going to raise like it’s doing. I mean it had gotten up to 149/105 one day. I was frustrated and emotional. But I had to make a choice. No matter what, I was not going to let my faith in God waver. I was not going to take another pill. I was not going to throw a pity party. But I decided to pray and praise my way through this. He even called me to fast. Because we know that “these things only come out by prayer and fasting.” My confidence in Jesus is real and I made up in my mind that I was going to trust Him and believe Him for complete healing. 
This choice allowed my faith to grow. It pushed me towards Christ instead of away. It caused me to speak His word more. It increased my prayer time. It allowed me to become dependent on Him. It caused me to work for what I wanted. I was prepared to stay in His face until this good work that He started in me was made complete. 
Did anyone catch that? James 1:2-4 says “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” This situation propelled me into the presence of God and taught me how to believe, patience, perseverance, trust, and wisdom. It gave me a “I will bless the Lord with all my heart” attitude. It drove me to my knees. It allowed me to see me and just how much self discipline I had and how much more was needed. Most of all, it gave all glory to God. I spoke about Him. I posted about Him. I shared of His greatness. I made His name great. So I choose to believe in His word because it is true. 
Now can you see why I said my life became better because of this? Yes? Ok, good! 
Can I ask you something? What are you believing God for? If it hasn’t happened yet, don’t give up. God honors His word. Speak His word, trust Him, and let Him be God. Be sure not to complain. Complaining prolongs the blessing. Instead of complaining, praise. I guarantee God will honor the good attitude verses the moaning and groaning. Be of good cheer. God sees you and He is going to work it out for you. God thinks you’re worth the promise. Hold on to His word!! 

Can you hear Me now?

It was 2011. I was cruising through life. Caught up in doing things my way knowing good and well I was going against God. But I was ok with this. Why? Because my God is soooo gracious. Yupp, I was doing my thing and didn’t care. I had SOME nerve!! 

So one night around 10 pm, I was chilling. The room completely dark. The room was quiet. I was alone. So I thought. All of a sudden, I  heard “don’t take advantage of My grace.” I jumped up and looked around the room. I got up and turned the light on. Looked around some more. Now, I did all of this knowing that I wasn’t going to find anyone in the room but me. I knew it was God. I sat on the bed. Thought about what I heard and immediately repented.

This would be first of many times I heard Him.

Now, I wish I could say that I got my act together right then and there. I wish I could say I became this great Christian… nope! (But thats another blog for another day)

After the moment I just told you about, years passed before I heard the voice of the Lord again. Sure, I knew His hand was on my life. Yes, I would see signs of Him being present. But He wasn’t speaking. Or was He? It wasn’t until I joined my church on a months fast in January 2016 that I began to recognize His voice. As I was fasting and praying (because they go hand in hand) I would take a moment to stop and listen. The more I tried to hear, the more I heard. Now during this time of fasting, I needed to make a decision in life and needed to know if this was Him or not. At times, I would think I heard Him , then would brush it off. Like naaaa, that was just me talking. This happened a lot during that month. Then one day I was sitting in the living and I said something (I can’t remember what) , but His response was “I’ve been speaking all along.” My mouth dropped. Clarity. This is all I wanted. To hear and recognize my Lords voice. This was a humbling experience. I wanted to cry and smile at the same time. Who was I that He would decide to visit me, sit with me, and talk. I was grateful. 

As I grew, I looked back on the event. I realized that I made myself available. I sought after and found Him. I called and He answered. As I quieted the noise around me, the volume of His increased. 

When was the first time you heard God speak? When was the last time You heard Him? Have you ever heard Him? How do you know when He is speaking?


You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Jeremiah 29:13 NIV

Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
James 4:8 NIV

But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you.
John 14:26 NIV

Whoever has ears, let them hear what the Spirit says to the churches.”
Revelation 3:22 NIV

The Lord said, “Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the Lord , for the Lord is about to pass by.” Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the Lord , but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. After the earthquake came a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper.

1 Kings 19:11‭-‬12 NIV