This Thing Called Religion 

The only life that I want to live is a life that’s pleasing to Christ.One filled with malice, maliousiness, twofaceness, and hate just isn’t right. The life that I live on social media must match my reality. That’s important to me. Some say, Jess you take this thing to seriously. No, I act like this “thing” is important to me. I rather be known as the prayerful, loving, Jesus giving girl. Then the one that cursed someone without a care. Maybe if enough of us took this “thing” a little more seriously, the hurt and lost would be more willing to listen. But right now, all they see is the church being the world’s equal. Instead of the church without a spot or a wrinkle.
Give Jesus. The people need Him. 

God has the juice 

Quick story…
My 2 year old niece stayed the night with me. Like most toddlers, she took over the bed and invaded my space. lol. I slid her over to her side multiple times. But the last time I moved her little body, she opened her pretty eyes to look for me. She stretched out her hand and moved back over towards me. What I then realized was that she didn’t just accidentally wander to my side, it was more than that. She wanted to be held. She wanted to be close. Maybe she just wanted to feel loved? Maybe she felt protected? Whatever she longed for, she knew that I had it.  
Long story short….GOD HAS WHAT YOU NEED!
I began to think, how often does God try to get our attention? How much would He love for us to just stop what we are doing and reach out to Him? Run to Him? Love on Him? Cry out to Him? Worship Him?  
HE HAS WHAT WE NEED.
Get into His presence.  

Worship. 

Pray. 

Fast. 

Cry out. 

Read the Bible.  
Peace and Blessings.

I’ll forever Claim That You’re Still Good

Dear heavenly Father,
I come before You interceding for Your people. Someone is going through. Someone is having a hard time. Someone is down. But I come before You, God knowing that nothing that we face, is too big for You. Nothing that we face is too hard for You to fix. Nothing that has happened or is happening is news to You. You hold our world in Your hands. You know our endings from our beginning. You are a good Father. Help us to look beyond our fears, hiccups, and pain and push to give You the praise in the midst of it. Help us to worship from a deeper place. Help us to honor You with the fruit of our lips. Help us to hold on to Your word knowing that it won’t return void. Many things will change in this world, but one thing is guaranteed, You will remain the same. No matter what is going on, You remain good. No matter how we feel, You remain good. No matter the test, You remain good. In lack, You’re good. In sickness, You’re good. In sadness, You’re good. In the midst of the storm, You’re good. You’re good when all is going well and we will claim the same when we hit a trial. Lord, how mighty are You. Your thoughts and ways are higher than ours. Give us the patience that we need for you to complete a perfect work in us. Give us the joy that will be our strength. Give us the endurance to remain in the race. Give us the peace that will surpass all understanding. Give us Your Word, for it is true and dependable. We will forever give You the praise and the glory. In Jesus Name. Amen. 

I see Me.

*looks in mirror*

Lord, what do you see?

I see Me. My work. My hand. My time well spent. I see your future. I see the pain. But don’t worry, it’s not in vain. I see greatness. Your life is a testimony. A story of how you overcame. You stuck with me through the pain and the heartache. You knew I’d make a way. So I gave you a new day. New mercies. Miracles. A new outlook. You had enough faith to see past your lows. You knew I was working on your behalf, so everything was good. Can I say, that I am pleased? Yes, I am very proud. You allowed me to be God. I am very proud. For this I will reward you openly. Your enemies will see my glory. No longer will you cry tears of sadness. Your heart won’t ache. I put my stamp of approval on you. I don’t make mistakes. please know That I put My good foot forward when creating you. I designed you so uniquely. An image of Me. So don’t be bothered if your misunderstood. I didn’t want you to feel comfortable. So many are compromising, but not you. I knew you wouldn’t. This is why I see remarkable. No matter what, keep that smile. It’s going to be seen and brighten many days. People will be encouraged just by one at look you. I gave you those eyes, so bright and bold. See those people hiding behind the masks they put up. Know that they are hurting and need more of Me. Give them that love thats unconditional. Let them know that I can heal their heart, like I healed yours. I know their very core. So stay deeply rooted in Me. Soon the word will get why I see what I see. I see Me.

Feeling Stuck?

My long sleeves hide the hurt

My smile covers the pain

My laugh puts a barrier around the tears

For now that is

I sit in a room full of people, yet I’m alone

I’m a prisoner 

Trapped

Forgotten 

No one cares to search for the key

The key that will unlock me from this misery

I don’t blame them

I barely think I’m worth saving

I don’t have the energy to dig 

So I’ll just sit here

Blade to my arm

Gun to my head

Meds in my hand

Or should I stand

On a bridge

In front of a truck

I mean, if I step out at the perfect time….

STOP!!!!!!!! 

You are worth fighting for!

No one can search for something that hasn’t been lost.

The key was in the hand of God all along.

He has the power to heal the hurt.

He has the power to ease the pain.

He has the perfect plan to turn those tears of sadness into joy.

God has the key.

I See You – Part 2

Dear young lady,

You are loved! I know, I know. I can hear your question…I am loved? I can hear your “yeah right.” But don’t stop reading. Please, hear me out. I know things my be a little rough. I know life seems unfair. Yeah, it’s hard to smile genuinely. No one sees the pain you carry. No one hears the “help me” through the fake laugh. No one hears the “I’m over life” when you say “I’m ok.” So you think….

Your eyes tell your deepest secret. They long for an ear to whisper to. They reach in hopes they will find an individual that will care. You don’t say “help me” with your mouth because you don’t want to be a burden. So you stay burdened. Hindered. Stuck. Depressed. Down.

But, I see you!

“No you don’t”, you say.

Yes I do. How? Because I have been in your shoes. So please know that there is hope. There is light at the end of the tunnel. There is a hand reaching out waiting for you to grab. This hand wants to save you from sinking any deeper. This hand is being extended by Jesus.

He is the way. The truth. The life. He came that we might have life and have it more abundantly. No weapon formed against us shall prosper for We are more than conquerors through Him. His joy is our strength.

Reach out and grab His hand. He loves you. He cares. Trust Him with your life.

I see you

You are not alone.

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I see you
I see the smile you wear to cover up the pain
Maybe if you smile hard enough no one will know you are going insane
You’re physically and mentally tired of putting on a front
When will someone hear you screaming “help”
I see you
You’re hurt, frustrated, and depressed
But you can’t even talk to anyone because you’re afraid of them finding out you’re a mess…inside
I see you
So you silently drown in your sorrow
Suffocating
Grasping for air
I see you
You decide enough is enough
I’m ready to exit this life
I can’t take another day of pretending and living a lie
How about I overdose on meds and just die
I see you
Life isnt worth living
It’s a constant struggle
No one understands
Man, where is this bottle?!
I see you
But before you pop that top to the bottle
Let…

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Sharing Is Caring

Lord, I just want to share the beauty of Your love with everyone I encounter.

May Your words spoken through me kiss their soul.

May Your Spirit smother every hurt, every pain.

Bring a peace that will flow like a river and wash every fear and doubtful thought away.

Encamp around them through  their daily journeys.

May the dipstick of their joy read “full”.

And Your comforting power bring that racing mind to a complete stop.

 

That’s all.

Life sucks.

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So we are all familiar with Facebook memories, right? Well today I scrolled through and saw the following post that was made visible to the Facebook world on this day in 2014. I think about this dark moment often and thank God even more often. But as you read the following paragraph, please know that suicide is not the answer. Life is worth living no matter how “bad” things may seem. Stay prayerful and know that God loves you. HE. LOVES. YOU!!!

Facebook memory….Full of praise today!! Had a flashback and I’m SO thankful!! To think some years ago, I was having suicidal thoughts! I didn’t put a knife to my wrist or od on meds, but I prayed that God would let me die in my sleep…I didn’t care care whether or not I woke up the next morning to see another day. I just wanted out! But to God be the glory he didn’t see fit to grant me this “prayer”. And I’m GLAD about it!!! It was selfish of me to even think this way.  What about my family, what about those lives that I’m destined to reach out to!! I would’ve been cutting off my purpose, my favor…my destiny!!! I’m so glad God kept me even when I didn’t want to be kept! So, treat others with love. You NEVER know what someone is going through and who your smile or a simple “hello, how are you doing” will touch!! I’m so glad that He saw fit for me to live this great life! No matter what…remember Jesus loves you and so do I!! There is nothing too big that God can’t handle! #JustWantToEncourageSomeone #Heknows #HeCares #JessCares #BeBlessed #BeEncouraged #CouldntPutAllThatIFeelIntoWords

Amen (It is so)

Lord, I intercede even now for those who are imprisoned by mental bars. We know that the enemy’s job is to steal, kill, and destroy, but you have given us power over the enemy. You have given us the victory. You have given us the power to speak to our mountain and it has to move. Your word says that whatever we bind on earth shall be bound in heaven and whatever we loose on earth will be loosed in heaven. So we bind the hand of the enemy right now. No weapon formed against us shall prosper. For we are more than conquers. I bind mental illness, for you have given us a sound mind. The spirit of depression, because your joy is our strength. The feeling of not being enough, for You thought we were to die (on the cross) for. The feeling of loneliness, for You will never leave us nor forsake us. The feeling of not being loved, for you are love. When we found You, we found love. I loose your peace that will flow like a river. Joy that is our strength. Laughter that does good like medicine. Your love that will find us even in the darkest moment. You’re our strength when we are weak. Help us Lord to live our life according to Your Word so that we will walk in our purpose, for Your glory. Lord, I pray for their complete freedom. In Jesus name. Amen.