I remember the day my Mommy, Iris Mebane Phillips, passed away. I was beyond hurt. I was crushed. I was depressed. I didn’t want to live life. I suffered from heartache for many years. I cried and I cried some more.
But…enough of that! This isn’t a post that will make you cry. But I hope it’s one that will bring peace to your heart and a smile on your face. Because today I am rejoicing and loving the life I’m living. And this life is because “she left a prayer” for me.
I remember my Mommy always being a praying woman. She prayed about everything. She consulted God in everything. This is one of the reasons I’m a strong believer in prayer today. But, my Mommy prayed for me. And I remember my Dad telling me it was before I was born. It started off in the womb. They both laid hands on her belly and prayed over my life. This was the beginning. But not the prayer I want to focus on today. I want to focus on the prayer she left here for me when she left this earth at the age of 56. The year 2005. This prayer keeps me. This prayer holds me. This prayer lifts me. This prayer comforts me. This prayer watches over me. This prayer put women in place that would help me live this wonderful journey called life.
As I was in prayer on 12/25/2018, the prayer came to my heart. I don’t know the exact words of the prayer, but the Holy Spirit revealed to me that she prayed for me. Her prayer included me being surrounded by great women of God that are powerful and who will keep me lifted in prayer. That can give me wisdom. This prayer included me being in the hands of women who I trust and love and could honor them as my very own. This prayer included women who would adore me and and adopt me into their families as their own. This prayer included me walking as a giant in ministry. This prayer covers me and lives through the women who God placed in my life to love me.
Who are these women? (No particular order)
Carla T. West- Mother
Pastor Gwen Bowen- Mama
Pastor Marlena Daggs- Spiritual Mother
Rev. Verona Chin- Mom
Prophetess Annie Howard- God Mother
As I sat down in prayer on 12/25/2018, these women came to mind. Each of them hold a special place in my heart. Each of them pray for me daily. Each of them offer me wisdom and guidance. Each of them were placed in my life because of my Mommy. They are apart of the prayer left for me.
So, how have I lived without my Mommy for 14 years? I haven’t. She’s with me everyday. I see her through my actions, smile, or speech. I see her in my ministry. I hear her whisper “Jess-Jess” and “Pookie Pie”. And lastly, I see her through these 5 women who are in my life because she needed to make sure I was raised and given that motherly love since she wouldn’t be here to do it herself.
Mommy. Iris. My angel. My everything…I honor you today and forever. I will continue to live in Christ and represent the kingdom. I will continue to move in God. I will continue to carry the mantle you left in my hands, for His glory. I LOVE YOU!!
Thank you for being a praying woman! ❤️
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOMMY!!!!!
Ever need a break during a frustrating, pull your hair out moment? Yeah, me too. Actually, I just had one of those moments. Within the past 2 weeks things have changed in my life. Not for the bad, but the things that are happening due to the change can be frustrating. I’m learning people while learning myself. Sounds overwhelming, huh? Well, it can be if I do this within myself. But when I want to just scream and run away, God reminds me that I can do all things through Him. All I have to do is take His hand and let Him walk me through the somewhat difficult moments. When I do, I can feel the tension ease, and my heart beat slowly decreases. A smile invades my face and I feel stronger. And the plus side? I keep all of my hair. Lol. So when you find yourself needing a break in the midst of frustration, grab ahold Jesus’ hand. And walk with Him.
I hear you screaming.
I see you reaching.
I feel your heart.
I am here.
I am here and I hear.
I am your ever present help.
I will never leave you nor forsake you.
Come to me ALL who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest.
I am your comfort.
I am your peace.
I am your healer.
I am your help.
I am your strength.
I am your joy.
Remember, call to Me.
I will answer.
I will bring you out.
I will deliver.
Look to Me.
I hear you screaming.
I see you reaching.
I feel your heart.
“I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth. He will not suffer thy foot to be moved: he that keepeth thee will not slumber. Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord is thy keeper: the Lord is thy shade upon thy right hand. The sun shall not smite thee by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul. The Lord shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore.”
Psalms 121:1-8 KJV
“Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
Matthew 11:28-30 KJV
“God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.”
Psalms 46:1 KJV
“Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. So that we may boldly say, The Lord is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.”
Hebrews 13:5-6 KJV
Living righteously allows us to walk in protection, provision, authority, life, diligently, abundantly, in freedom, joyfully, fruitfully, progressively, with strength, with patience, and with endurance. We long to hear the voice of God throughout our days. But the wicked do not seek to hear His voice or correction. The wicked walk according to flesh and fulfilling the lusts of flesh. The outcome is death. Living in correction brings honor. God brings correction to those He loves. He loves us enough to save us from the trap of death. So let us listen to the voice of God as He instructs us in our daily lives. This instruction births wisdom.
How will you walk in wisdom today?
His unfailing love will not be shaken. It’s always available. There for the taking. Along with it, come mercy and grace. He promised these would follow us for all of our days. Resting in Him knowing that no love is greater. It came in our spirits leaving us full of joy not bitter. A love that never fails even when we do. A love that doesn’t wrong and keeps no records. So for the record, we are commissioned to give this same love. It’s not always easy to love ours how you love yourself. But that when Something greater kicks in. It comes from within. Teaches us all things. We only win. Cause we can’t go wrong when we follow God’s direction. It keeps us from sin. So the next time you hear His voice make sure to listen. We are on a mission. His love is spreading like a wildfire. Let’s do what we were commissioned. Love.
Who are you?
A person that is defined by the clothes you wear?
The latest car, latest watch, the style of your hair?
The fact that the world glorifies outward appearance is sad.
We are rated and categorized based on how well we perk our lips, raise our brow, and [snap]
“Like. Like. Like.”
“Like. Like. Like. Like. Like. Like”
Pops up on your screen.
You smile because this temporally raised your self esteem.
Don’t you know your worth?
Don’t you know you are a gem?
We have become slaves to a social scam.
We say “I don’t care what people think’…but are constantly worrying about what people think.
When will we realize the worlds opinion doesn’t matter.
How you feel about yourself when you look in the mirror is the only opinion that really matters.
Run away from the facade society created.
There’s more to you then the short skirt and heels.
Pick up your head, smile, and learn to love you.
You’ll never be happy if you wait for the validation of others.
You, my dear, are wonderfully and fearfully made.
You were created in Gods image.
Let me say that again….
YOU ARE WONDERFULLY AND FEARFULLY MADE.
YOU WERE CREATED IN GODS IMAGE!
The more you say it, the more you’ll believe it.
The more you believe it, the more you’ll see it.
So, Who are You?
YOU ARE a winner!
YOU ARE an overcomer!
YOU ARE a success!
YOU ARE beautiful!
YOU ARE smart!
YOU ARE a gem!
YOU ARE unique!
YOU ARE one of a kind!
YOU ARE more than a conqueror!
YOU ARE extraordinary!
YOU ARE an achiever!
YOU ARE fabulous!
YOU ARE dope!
YOU ARE kind!
YOU ARE fearless!
YOU ARE worth it!
YOU ARE worth loving!
YOU ARE more than enough!
YOU ARE destined for greatness!
YOU ARE fearfully and wonderfully made!
YOU ARE Gods masterpiece!
W H O A R E Y O U ? ?
You’re looking for love and Love has been there all along.
Jesus is love.
I find myself talking to my friends more than I talk to you.
I find myself entertaining others more than I pray.
I long for your presence but am busy to call upon Your name.
Praying before I leave the house in the morn? Sorry, no time because I overslept. Is it okay to pray on the go? We can have intimate time during my 10 minute drive to work. Don’t worry, i’ll lower the radio for a moment.
The best way to get to know someone is to spend time with them, but my time is too precious for You.
Yes, I binge watched a full 5 seasons this weekend and felt it was ok to say a quick thank You before I went to sleep.
I decided to take matters into my own hands, because my will is more important than Yours.
We can try Your way after we try my way.
I read the verse of the day in my bible app while at a red light.
What my friends are tweeting and posting is so much more interesting.
Hold on wait, my favorite YouTube couple just posted their latest vlog.
Ok, let me settle down and focus on You.
I’ll do better tomorrow…
Ladies and gentleman, let us not take advantage of Gods grace.
To Be Continued….