How I Lived Without My Mommy For 14 Years

I remember the day my Mommy, Iris Mebane Phillips, passed away. I was beyond hurt. I was crushed. I was depressed. I didn’t want to live life. I suffered from heartache for many years. I cried and I cried some more.

But…enough of that! This isn’t a post that will make you cry. But I hope it’s one that will bring peace to your heart and a smile on your face. Because today I am rejoicing and loving the life I’m living. And this life is because “she left a prayer” for me.

What prayer?

I remember my Mommy always being a praying woman. She prayed about everything. She consulted God in everything. This is one of the reasons I’m a strong believer in prayer today. But, my Mommy prayed for me. And I remember my Dad telling me it was before I was born. It started off in the womb. They both laid hands on her belly and prayed over my life. This was the beginning. But not the prayer I want to focus on today. I want to focus on the prayer she left here for me when she left this earth at the age of 56. The year 2005. This prayer keeps me. This prayer holds me. This prayer lifts me. This prayer comforts me. This prayer watches over me. This prayer put women in place that would help me live this wonderful journey called life.

As I was in prayer on 12/25/2018, the prayer came to my heart. I don’t know the exact words of the prayer, but the Holy Spirit revealed to me that she prayed for me. Her prayer included me being surrounded by great women of God that are powerful and who will keep me lifted in prayer. That can give me wisdom. This prayer included me being in the hands of women who I trust and love and could honor them as my very own. This prayer included women who would adore me and and adopt me into their families as their own. This prayer included me walking as a giant in ministry. This prayer covers me and lives through the women who God placed in my life to love me.

Who are these women? (No particular order)

Carla T. West- Mother

Pastor Gwen Bowen- Mama

Pastor Marlena Daggs- Spiritual Mother

Rev. Verona Chin- Mom

Prophetess Annie Howard- God Mother

As I sat down in prayer on 12/25/2018, these women came to mind. Each of them hold a special place in my heart. Each of them pray for me daily. Each of them offer me wisdom and guidance. Each of them were placed in my life because of my Mommy. They are apart of the prayer left for me.

So, how have I lived without my Mommy for 14 years? I haven’t. She’s with me everyday. I see her through my actions, smile, or speech. I see her in my ministry. I hear her whisper “Jess-Jess” and “Pookie Pie”. And lastly, I see her through these 5 women who are in my life because she needed to make sure I was raised and given that motherly love since she wouldn’t be here to do it herself.

Mommy. Iris. My angel. My everything…I honor you today and forever. I will continue to live in Christ and represent the kingdom. I will continue to move in God. I will continue to carry the mantle you left in my hands, for His glory. I LOVE YOU!!

Thank you for being a praying woman! ❤️

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOMMY!!!!!

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A woman that’s put together so wonderfully.
I was phenomenally made by God.
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May my life be rich in favor for all to see.
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For me to become enslaved to the words of society,
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