How I Lived Without My Mommy For 14 Years

I remember the day my Mommy, Iris Mebane Phillips, passed away. I was beyond hurt. I was crushed. I was depressed. I didn’t want to live life. I suffered from heartache for many years. I cried and I cried some more.

But…enough of that! This isn’t a post that will make you cry. But I hope it’s one that will bring peace to your heart and a smile on your face. Because today I am rejoicing and loving the life I’m living. And this life is because “she left a prayer” for me.

What prayer?

I remember my Mommy always being a praying woman. She prayed about everything. She consulted God in everything. This is one of the reasons I’m a strong believer in prayer today. But, my Mommy prayed for me. And I remember my Dad telling me it was before I was born. It started off in the womb. They both laid hands on her belly and prayed over my life. This was the beginning. But not the prayer I want to focus on today. I want to focus on the prayer she left here for me when she left this earth at the age of 56. The year 2005. This prayer keeps me. This prayer holds me. This prayer lifts me. This prayer comforts me. This prayer watches over me. This prayer put women in place that would help me live this wonderful journey called life.

As I was in prayer on 12/25/2018, the prayer came to my heart. I don’t know the exact words of the prayer, but the Holy Spirit revealed to me that she prayed for me. Her prayer included me being surrounded by great women of God that are powerful and who will keep me lifted in prayer. That can give me wisdom. This prayer included me being in the hands of women who I trust and love and could honor them as my very own. This prayer included women who would adore me and and adopt me into their families as their own. This prayer included me walking as a giant in ministry. This prayer covers me and lives through the women who God placed in my life to love me.

Who are these women? (No particular order)

Carla T. West- Mother

Pastor Gwen Bowen- Mama

Pastor Marlena Daggs- Spiritual Mother

Rev. Verona Chin- Mom

Prophetess Annie Howard- God Mother

As I sat down in prayer on 12/25/2018, these women came to mind. Each of them hold a special place in my heart. Each of them pray for me daily. Each of them offer me wisdom and guidance. Each of them were placed in my life because of my Mommy. They are apart of the prayer left for me.

So, how have I lived without my Mommy for 14 years? I haven’t. She’s with me everyday. I see her through my actions, smile, or speech. I see her in my ministry. I hear her whisper “Jess-Jess” and “Pookie Pie”. And lastly, I see her through these 5 women who are in my life because she needed to make sure I was raised and given that motherly love since she wouldn’t be here to do it herself.

Mommy. Iris. My angel. My everything…I honor you today and forever. I will continue to live in Christ and represent the kingdom. I will continue to move in God. I will continue to carry the mantle you left in my hands, for His glory. I LOVE YOU!!

Thank you for being a praying woman! ❤️

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOMMY!!!!!

The Beauty of Thanksgiving

As I was reading through Ephesians 5 this morning, this verse jumped out at me:

“Nor should there be obscenity, foolish talk or coarse joking, which are out of place, but rather thanksgiving.”

‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭5:4‬ ‭NIV‬‬

I had to stop and pause. I reread. I broke it down. And this is what the Lord allowed me to see. While He showed me what I’m about to share with you, He revealed myself to me and what I need to do.

1. Let all obscene behavior, foolish talk, and coarse joking go.

Why? Because these things aren’t the character of God. When we accepted Christ as our Lord and Savior, we put on His character. The old me/you passed away. So we no longer live according to our flesh, but the Spirit.

2. Don’t hang around those who act and talk in such a way.

Why? Because 1 Corinthians 15:33 tells us that bad company corrupts good character. So if we am hanging with someone who practice these things, they will contaminate our character. Our Spirit, if not strong enough, will be contaminated too.

3. Partake in the beauty of Thanksgiving.

Why? Thanksgiving sets an atmosphere of praise. When we are thanking God, we are thinking on everything He has done for us. In return, we offer praises to Him. We are putting a smile on His face by partaking in the beauty of Thanksgiving. Since we are choosing to eliminate the things that don’t please Him (obscenity, foolish talk, and coarse joking) and act out the things that do (thanksgiving), we are living a thriving life and on the road of righteousness. And this road leads to Heaven.


#HowIThriveDaily

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If Patience Is A virtue, I Need It To Flow.

Patience. That’s something that needs to be given to others as well as yourself. Today, as I was going through my day, I encountered a few things that pulled at my patience. So what did I do? I pulled on God. Why? Because He reminded me how to offer patience. There are moments when I push His EVERY button. I fail to listen. I throw temper tantrums. I ignore Him. But in all of that, He’s STILL patient with me. So as I went through my day, He helped me deal with myself by reminding me of how He deals with me. In the end it was a success. And I offered myself patience that I needed.


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This Week

God gave me some scriptures to hold onto and to apply to each moment of the day. I’ll share them with you. These scriptures will help me to have a successful day which will lead to a successful and peaceful week. I will meditate on them day and night. I will speak them. I will put them into practice.

“Therefore, my brothers and sisters, you whom I love and long for, my joy and crown, stand firm in the Lord in this way, dear friends! I plead with Euodia and I plead with Syntyche to be of the same mind in the Lord.

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

I can do all this through him who gives me strength.

And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.”

‭‭Philippians‬ ‭4:1-2, 4-9, 13, 19‬ ‭NIV‬‬


What scriptures will you hold onto this week?

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Ephesians 5:1-20 Prayer

Jesus, help me to follow Your example. To walk in love at all times. Help me to sacrifice myself and give myself to others as You did for me on the cross. Please purify me; my heart, mind, body, and motives. Take out anything that isn’t like You. Help my words to be pleasing to Your ears. May they build up those I speak to and about and not tear them down. Help me to always be thankful. Jesus help me to keep You first and not put anyone or anything before You. Help me to be wise and walk according to Your guidance and wisdom. Keep my company honest and may they have good motives. Please teach me Your will so that I can walk it out obediently and live a righteous life. Keep me out of the company of those who are disobedient. Help me to have holy boldness and speak truth at all times. Jesus, thank You for every opportunity. Help me to make the most of them all. Fill me with Your Spirit. I need You. I thank You. In Jesus Name. Amen.


Ephesians 5:1-20

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Can you live pure?

Today, in this day and time, is it possible to live pure? Sure it is. Will it be easy? No. Sometimes it will be a challenge. It will seem like 20 people will choose to go left and you will be the only person going right. When this happens, you’ll have to make a decision to walk the path your heart is set to follow and not switch directions (conform) because those 20 people went left. You must stand strong on the Word of God and know that you were called according to His purpose. You must not waiver and keep your eyes pressed on the mark set for the high calling. You must have a made up mind to live a life that is sanctified, holy, and honorable. You must be on a mission to hear Jesus say, “Enter in.”


1 Thessalonians 4

Romans 12:2

Romans 8:28

Philippians 3:14

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You’ve Been Marked

You’ve been marked, so we’ll just call you:

A winner, Dope, A conqueror, A Child of a King, Blessed, Favored, Royalty, Loved, Prosperous, Heir to the kingdom, The head, Above, A Leader, the Lender, Wealthy , Wise, Great, Awesome , Worthy, Brave, Obedient, Anointed, Chosen, Destined, Unique, Bought with a price, Free, Redeemed, and so much more!

“And you also were included in Christ when you heard the message of truth, the gospel of your salvation. When you believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit,”

‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭1:13‬ ‭NIV‬‬❤️

So…you got this one, eh?

Why do we choose to take matters into our own hands? Why do we say, “Take a coffee break, Jesus. I have this one under control.” We forcefully take whatever we placed in His hands back. We send Him to our other issue(s) and keep this particular one because we feel we can handle it, it’s not that serious to give to God, or we are tired of waiting on God to work and think we can make things happen faster.

Let’s think for a moment. In life, we all have tried to fix one thing or another. When we did, we failed. Or we temporarily fixed the issue with our solution. I remember getting having an issue with my radiator in my car. It had a leak which caused my fluid to leak. Fixing it was about $350. I didn’t have that at the time. So I spoke to some people and they recommended putting an adhesive fluid in my radiator that will flow through and attach itself to the issue. If this worked, the leak would be fixed. But only for a moment. It would just buy me time until I replaced the radiator. But if I chose this route, the fluid of course doesn’t just stay in radiator, but the fluid will flow through the system. Now I would risk clogging up other parts of my car because of my quick and easy patch work.

Can you see where this is going? Taking the situation from God to fix it yourself will cause other areas in your life to be affected. Not only is your faith in God now rocky, but your trust is shaky. Your determination is now depleting. Your destiny has now taken a back seat to your now. We take our eyes off of the bigger picture to “fix” our now. By patching up our now, we hinder the blessing from flowing to our future.

The Bible says, “to acknowledge Me in all of your ways and I will direct your path. “It also reads, “cast all your cast into me.” The keys Word in both these verses is all. Not some. Not only the “big” things. Not just things that seem out of your reach. But ALL. Why does He want all of your ways and cares? Because His thoughts and ways are so much higher than ours could even be. His wisdom is too great. If we need to have surgery, we go to the hospital and lay down on the bed so the doctor can work on our bodies. But first they put us to sleep. Imagine taking the scalpel from the doctor while saying “I got this”. No you don’t have this. You will bleed to death if you make the wrong incision. Because you have no idea what you’re doing. The doctor has the schooling and knowledge to know that where they need to cut here. I need to do xyandz to fix this problem and make this person healthier.

So I say all of this to say, let God reign freely in your life. He has everything under control. Trusting Him is the best thing you can do in your life. He is God. A God that is able to do above all you can ask or think.

a heavy love

Love. Such a loaded word. Such a passionate word. A word that is said without thought. A word that is taken for granted it is thrown around, abused, and trampled on. Takes a beating and still loves on. It embraces our weaknesses, tears, and faults. Picks us up and dusts us off. Forgives us of our wrongs. Then wipes the slate clean like it was dust free all along. Love journeys with us as we walk this life. Blocking the things that causes wounds. It takes the hit instead. Causing our bodies to remain free of the lashes. Love frees, heals, and delivers. Love defeated death so we could live. Defeated the enemy so we could live victoriously. Bared the cross on Calvary so we could live blamelessly. Love knows us deeply. It flows to the inner most parts ans stays there. Causing our hearts and desires to shift. giving us a face lift. Because its impossible not to smile when you experience pure joy. Love has a way of keeping you wanting more. Its an addiction that doesn’t give you the shakes. A high that doesn’t have a low. Tracks marks are left on you heart and soul. It will leave people wondering how you stay sane and happy in the midst of turmoil. Love is pure. Love fresh. Love is inviting. Love is giving. Love is forgiving. Love curbs my appetite from imitations. It shows me my worth and why life is worth living. Love guards my life and causes it to stay on course. Not wavering, but standing firm. Love tackles my enemies and brings them to their knees. Causing them to surrender and leave. One way they came, seven they will flee. Think twice before coming for me. I have love on my side, back, and front. I have the luxury of calling and its there to hunt. Ready to fill me with more and filter out what isn’t needed. It keeps me from feeling depleted. Love is genuine. Love is strength. Love is power. Love is gracious. love is mighty. Love is faithful. Love is healing. Love is worthy. Love is patient. Love is kind. Love is trusting. Love is selfless. Love hopes. Love perseveres. Love is fail proof. This love I speak about is Jesus. Know Jesus and know love.

because of your faith…

I had a conversation with God.

As I asked what to do, He responded with “a move”.

“Whew, that’s gonna take a step of faith,” I said.

“So step,” He replied.  “Jump and watch Me catch you.  You’ll end up in the land you’ve been praying to enter.  A land that you envisioned.  No longer do you have to stand on the other side of the gate as you dream.  Now you can walk into all that you spoke and believed.  You came to Me and I saw your heart.  You put time in,  you did your part.  You allowed Me to be first in your life, so it’s now up to Me to add all of these things as I promised.  It’s time for Me to do what I said, because you were obedient to everything I said.  You followed My Word everyday.  Even behind closed doors.  Now, that’s integrity.  That’s smart. You now have My heart.  You desire to do My will over yours.  I am pleased to give you more.  Because I know that you will build My kingdom up and give Me the glory as I fill your cup.  Thank you for being faithful to Me, My child.”