When Will It End? Part 1

I will praise Thee, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are Thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. Psalm 139:14 (KJV)

Your beauty, I created.

Me, your Lord.

But you choose to worship idols and claim to be flawed.

I can’t understand why you use this word.

You put My work down that I made.

You curse and flaunt your false beauty.

Creating a duplicate piece.

Remember that the duplicate never holds as much worth as the original masterpiece.

You hold yourself up to the next man or woman.

All the while, they look at you in the same manner.

When will it all stop.

When will you all see that your beauty can’t be reproduced.

I didn’t make them like you, nor did I make you them.

So stop throwing shade at yourself.

Putting yourself down.

Every time you do, I frown.

Why?

Because with every negative though, you come in agreement with the devil.

Who puts these idols and false Gods directly in front of you.

This is why so many are denying my gospel.

The hoop.

The holler.

The “dressed for the gawds”

And you look at Me for more income just to spend it on that Benz.

Your lights are off and your every bill is due.

Was it worth keeping up with the false Gods?

You claim to “put a praise on it” for your miracle to come.

But what you don’t know is that isn’t how I flow.

Get into My Word, my dear child.

Give it a rest.

I see you’re weary and Me, i’m unimpressed.

Realize that the abundant life I came to give you wasn’t for show.

I came hoping you’d carry My glow.

The abundant life has more to do with than just fame.

No, it’s falling to your knees and proclaiming My name.

“My glory will be shown through them”, was my first thoughts when I made you.

But you took that glory and now My Word is being fulfilled through you.

Not in the way that I wanted.

But men will be lovers of themselves.

Yeah, that part.

So how far will you go all in the name of fashion?

Your gaining this world and loosing your salvation.

How I Lived Without My Mommy For 14 Years

I remember the day my Mommy, Iris Mebane Phillips, passed away. I was beyond hurt. I was crushed. I was depressed. I didn’t want to live life. I suffered from heartache for many years. I cried and I cried some more.

But…enough of that! This isn’t a post that will make you cry. But I hope it’s one that will bring peace to your heart and a smile on your face. Because today I am rejoicing and loving the life I’m living. And this life is because “she left a prayer” for me.

What prayer?

I remember my Mommy always being a praying woman. She prayed about everything. She consulted God in everything. This is one of the reasons I’m a strong believer in prayer today. But, my Mommy prayed for me. And I remember my Dad telling me it was before I was born. It started off in the womb. They both laid hands on her belly and prayed over my life. This was the beginning. But not the prayer I want to focus on today. I want to focus on the prayer she left here for me when she left this earth at the age of 56. The year 2005. This prayer keeps me. This prayer holds me. This prayer lifts me. This prayer comforts me. This prayer watches over me. This prayer put women in place that would help me live this wonderful journey called life.

As I was in prayer on 12/25/2018, the prayer came to my heart. I don’t know the exact words of the prayer, but the Holy Spirit revealed to me that she prayed for me. Her prayer included me being surrounded by great women of God that are powerful and who will keep me lifted in prayer. That can give me wisdom. This prayer included me being in the hands of women who I trust and love and could honor them as my very own. This prayer included women who would adore me and and adopt me into their families as their own. This prayer included me walking as a giant in ministry. This prayer covers me and lives through the women who God placed in my life to love me.

Who are these women? (No particular order)

Carla T. West- Mother

Pastor Gwen Bowen- Mama

Pastor Marlena Daggs- Spiritual Mother

Rev. Verona Chin- Mom

Prophetess Annie Howard- God Mother

As I sat down in prayer on 12/25/2018, these women came to mind. Each of them hold a special place in my heart. Each of them pray for me daily. Each of them offer me wisdom and guidance. Each of them were placed in my life because of my Mommy. They are apart of the prayer left for me.

So, how have I lived without my Mommy for 14 years? I haven’t. She’s with me everyday. I see her through my actions, smile, or speech. I see her in my ministry. I hear her whisper “Jess-Jess” and “Pookie Pie”. And lastly, I see her through these 5 women who are in my life because she needed to make sure I was raised and given that motherly love since she wouldn’t be here to do it herself.

Mommy. Iris. My angel. My everything…I honor you today and forever. I will continue to live in Christ and represent the kingdom. I will continue to move in God. I will continue to carry the mantle you left in my hands, for His glory. I LOVE YOU!!

Thank you for being a praying woman! ❤️

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOMMY!!!!!

Are you strong and courageous?

Are you being strong and courageous or are you being weary and unstable? This was a question for me first. I had to answer it when God brought me to Joshua 1:18. As I read, I realized that in my disobedience I am dying and those I’m destined to reach will die. Because God placed me strategically among people to bring deliverance and healing. And He’s done the same for you. So when we are being weary and unstable, the enemy is coaching us to stay as such. Why? Because if you are discouraged, you won’t walk strongly and courageous after the things God needs you to do. His will MUST be done in you. And not just for your sake, but for the souls you are destined to touch. No pressure. Because aren’t we just doing what God called us to do? So don’t be weary. Be strong. Be courageous. Be who God called you to be in Him.


“Whoever rebels against your word and does not obey it, whatever you may command them, will be put to death. Only be strong and courageous!””

‭‭Joshua‬ ‭1:18‬ ‭NIV‬‬

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A Simple Prayer

Jesus, it’s a new day. A day full of new mercies. Thank You for allowing me to see a brand new day that You have made. Forgive me for my sins. Help me today to walk victoriously through the day. Help me to keep your Word hidden in my heart so that I don’t sin against You. Help me because I really want to do what pleases You, but sometimes it’s hard. I need Your help. I need Your hand. Walk with me, please. In Jesus’ name. Amen. ❤️


Psalm 119:1-10

Help

I hear you screaming.

I see you reaching.

I feel your heart.

I am here.

Me. God.

I am here and I hear.

I am your ever present help.

I will never leave you nor forsake you.

Come to me ALL who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest.

I am your comfort.

I am your peace.

I am your healer.

I am your help.

I am your strength.

I am your joy.

Remember, call to Me.

I will answer.

I will bring you out.

I will deliver.

Look to Me.

I hear you screaming.

I see you reaching.

I feel your heart.


“I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth. He will not suffer thy foot to be moved: he that keepeth thee will not slumber. Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord is thy keeper: the Lord is thy shade upon thy right hand. The sun shall not smite thee by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul. The Lord shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭121:1-8‬ ‭KJV‬‬

“Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”

‭‭Matthew‬ ‭11:28-30‬ ‭KJV‬‬

“God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭46:1‬ ‭KJV‬‬

“Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. So that we may boldly say, The Lord is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.”

‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭13:5-6‬ ‭KJV‬‬

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I’ll forever Claim That You’re Still Good

Dear heavenly Father,
I come before You interceding for Your people. Someone is going through. Someone is having a hard time. Someone is down. But I come before You, God knowing that nothing that we face, is too big for You. Nothing that we face is too hard for You to fix. Nothing that has happened or is happening is news to You. You hold our world in Your hands. You know our endings from our beginning. You are a good Father. Help us to look beyond our fears, hiccups, and pain and push to give You the praise in the midst of it. Help us to worship from a deeper place. Help us to honor You with the fruit of our lips. Help us to hold on to Your word knowing that it won’t return void. Many things will change in this world, but one thing is guaranteed, You will remain the same. No matter what is going on, You remain good. No matter how we feel, You remain good. No matter the test, You remain good. In lack, You’re good. In sickness, You’re good. In sadness, You’re good. In the midst of the storm, You’re good. You’re good when all is going well and we will claim the same when we hit a trial. Lord, how mighty are You. Your thoughts and ways are higher than ours. Give us the patience that we need for you to complete a perfect work in us. Give us the joy that will be our strength. Give us the endurance to remain in the race. Give us the peace that will surpass all understanding. Give us Your Word, for it is true and dependable. We will forever give You the praise and the glory. In Jesus Name. Amen. 

I See You – Part 2

Dear young lady,

You are loved! I know, I know. I can hear your question…I am loved? I can hear your “yeah right.” But don’t stop reading. Please, hear me out. I know things my be a little rough. I know life seems unfair. Yeah, it’s hard to smile genuinely. No one sees the pain you carry. No one hears the “help me” through the fake laugh. No one hears the “I’m over life” when you say “I’m ok.” So you think….

Your eyes tell your deepest secret. They long for an ear to whisper to. They reach in hopes they will find an individual that will care. You don’t say “help me” with your mouth because you don’t want to be a burden. So you stay burdened. Hindered. Stuck. Depressed. Down.

But, I see you!

“No you don’t”, you say.

Yes I do. How? Because I have been in your shoes. So please know that there is hope. There is light at the end of the tunnel. There is a hand reaching out waiting for you to grab. This hand wants to save you from sinking any deeper. This hand is being extended by Jesus.

He is the way. The truth. The life. He came that we might have life and have it more abundantly. No weapon formed against us shall prosper for We are more than conquerors through Him. His joy is our strength.

Reach out and grab His hand. He loves you. He cares. Trust Him with your life.

Sharing Is Caring

Lord, I just want to share the beauty of Your love with everyone I encounter.

May Your words spoken through me kiss their soul.

May Your Spirit smother every hurt, every pain.

Bring a peace that will flow like a river and wash every fear and doubtful thought away.

Encamp around them through  their daily journeys.

May the dipstick of their joy read “full”.

And Your comforting power bring that racing mind to a complete stop.

 

That’s all.

Life sucks.

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So we are all familiar with Facebook memories, right? Well today I scrolled through and saw the following post that was made visible to the Facebook world on this day in 2014. I think about this dark moment often and thank God even more often. But as you read the following paragraph, please know that suicide is not the answer. Life is worth living no matter how “bad” things may seem. Stay prayerful and know that God loves you. HE. LOVES. YOU!!!

Facebook memory….Full of praise today!! Had a flashback and I’m SO thankful!! To think some years ago, I was having suicidal thoughts! I didn’t put a knife to my wrist or od on meds, but I prayed that God would let me die in my sleep…I didn’t care care whether or not I woke up the next morning to see another day. I just wanted out! But to God be the glory he didn’t see fit to grant me this “prayer”. And I’m GLAD about it!!! It was selfish of me to even think this way.  What about my family, what about those lives that I’m destined to reach out to!! I would’ve been cutting off my purpose, my favor…my destiny!!! I’m so glad God kept me even when I didn’t want to be kept! So, treat others with love. You NEVER know what someone is going through and who your smile or a simple “hello, how are you doing” will touch!! I’m so glad that He saw fit for me to live this great life! No matter what…remember Jesus loves you and so do I!! There is nothing too big that God can’t handle! #JustWantToEncourageSomeone #Heknows #HeCares #JessCares #BeBlessed #BeEncouraged #CouldntPutAllThatIFeelIntoWords