a heavy love

Love. Such a loaded word. Such a passionate word. A word that is said without thought. A word that is taken for granted it is thrown around, abused, and trampled on. Takes a beating and still loves on. It embraces our weaknesses, tears, and faults. Picks us up and dusts us off. Forgives us of our wrongs. Then wipes the slate clean like it was dust free all along. Love journeys with us as we walk this life. Blocking the things that causes wounds. It takes the hit instead. Causing our bodies to remain free of the lashes. Love frees, heals, and delivers. Love defeated death so we could live. Defeated the enemy so we could live victoriously. Bared the cross on Calvary so we could live blamelessly. Love knows us deeply. It flows to the inner most parts ans stays there. Causing our hearts and desires to shift. giving us a face lift. Because its impossible not to smile when you experience pure joy. Love has a way of keeping you wanting more. Its an addiction that doesn’t give you the shakes. A high that doesn’t have a low. Tracks marks are left on you heart and soul. It will leave people wondering how you stay sane and happy in the midst of turmoil. Love is pure. Love fresh. Love is inviting. Love is giving. Love is forgiving. Love curbs my appetite from imitations. It shows me my worth and why life is worth living. Love guards my life and causes it to stay on course. Not wavering, but standing firm. Love tackles my enemies and brings them to their knees. Causing them to surrender and leave. One way they came, seven they will flee. Think twice before coming for me. I have love on my side, back, and front. I have the luxury of calling and its there to hunt. Ready to fill me with more and filter out what isn’t needed. It keeps me from feeling depleted. Love is genuine. Love is strength. Love is power. Love is gracious. love is mighty. Love is faithful. Love is healing. Love is worthy. Love is patient. Love is kind. Love is trusting. Love is selfless. Love hopes. Love perseveres. Love is fail proof. This love I speak about is Jesus. Know Jesus and know love.


because of your faith…

I had a conversation with God.

As I asked what to do, He responded with “a move”.

“Whew, that’s gonna take a step of faith,” I said.

“So step,” He replied.  “Jump and watch Me catch you.  You’ll end up in the land you’ve been praying to enter.  A land that you envisioned.  No longer do you have to stand on the other side of the gate as you dream.  Now you can walk into all that you spoke and believed.  You came to Me and I saw your heart.  You put time in,  you did your part.  You allowed Me to be first in your life, so it’s now up to Me to add all of these things as I promised.  It’s time for Me to do what I said, because you were obedient to everything I said.  You followed My Word everyday.  Even behind closed doors.  Now, that’s integrity.  That’s smart. You now have My heart.  You desire to do My will over yours.  I am pleased to give you more.  Because I know that you will build My kingdom up and give Me the glory as I fill your cup.  Thank you for being faithful to Me, My child.”

One Word: Perfect

As I watched the sunset on January 31st, I couldn’t help but see the perfection of His beauty. I thought over my first month of 2018. Everyday was perfect. So my perfect days led to a perfect month. Gods glory was truly shown to me. His faithfulness was seen throughout the month. His beauty was radiating through the moments of each day. I rose with a will to seek Him. What I found was love, peace, joy, blessings galore, hope, love (can I say that twice?), obedience, sacrifice, ministry, perfecting of faith, abundance, and more. I found that when I am obedient to His will, I give God the opportunity to do the unexpected. What I found in my month, was being in His perfect will created perfect days which formed a perfect month.

That move the hand of God faith (I want it)

Faith walk. Faith talks. I slip. I fall. Because I took my eyes off it all. I believe what I can’t see. Until someone comes and gives their opinion. When I listen, I must remain prayerful. They can’t see my vision. So if I let their word in, I slip. I fall. No more faith. Now it’s all based on what I see. There is no calculating when walking in Me(Christ). Trust and believe you are on the right path. Keeping going in Me. Keep growing in Me. What you see will not always be when you are walking with Me. Faith walks. Faith talks. Getting moving.

But why??

Why do You love me like You do, Jesus?

Even when you see all that I do.

How can You look pass my faults?

Those things i intentionally walked into.

You tried to warn me and keep me focused.

But I slipped into sin again and again.

I caused my flesh to mute Your voice

The lifesaver and life’s Savior.

Jesus, this can’t be.

Again, how can You still love me?

I turned my back on You many times.

I don’t seek You all of the time.

I don’t fast to keep my soul on fire for You.

But I let this world replace my time with You.

I am so self absorbed.

All I see is me.

I’m too busy to stop and help others.

Send someone in place of me.

I am devoted to being selfish.

I live for the applaud.

No time to accept Your love.

I must go.  I gotta get there quick.

But honestly, I’m so sick.

I’m tired of stabbing You in the back.

You’ve given me plenty of chances.

Wait! Are You sure You don’t want Your love back?

I know I’m living my life whack.

It’s a complete mess without You.

But somehow I can’t find the words to come running back to You.

You deserve better.

You deserve more.

Yet You keep holding on.

Picking me up when I feel all hope is lost.

Jesus, why?

Please! Give up on me.

I have!

I’m not worth Your time and effort.

Go ahead and just walk pass.

But wait, You’re too good for that.

That wouldn’t be You. You’re not whack.

You aren’t lame.

You can’t be that.

You died for my sins. This is why You’ll take me back.

You love so freely and deeply.

Your death is a sign for me.

The greatest deed ever done.

I can’t lose. I’ve already won.

Because of what you did on the cross,

I can see why You won’t let me stay lost.

Thank You, Jesus for loving me.

Thank You for dying on Calvary.

You shed Your blood just for me.

So I won’t walk with my head down.

This frown is now a smile

Because I can see clearly.

How Your mercy and grace saved me.

So no more pity parties.

I accept what You have done for me.

Now I ask, Lord please.

Come into my heart and save me.



What Luke 1 Teaches Us.


What can we learn from Luke 1?

  • The Word of God will never fail. People will fail us. We may fail ourselves. Our jobs and this world will fail us, but the Word of God will NEVER fail. It will prosper! If there is no failure in the Bible, why do we question it? We have seen the Word of God come alive in our lives on many occasions. What makes us think it will fail us now? Has God changed? Nope! He remains the same. And guess what? His Word is the same yesterday, today, and forever. There is no failure in His Word.
  • Because of Zechariah’s obedience to Gods will, he was immediately blessed and received His voice back. Immediately. We know that following the will of God isn’t always easy, but we can see that there are blessings attached to obedience. Not only was he blessed to receive his voice, but Johns life can now fulfill the will of God because of his fathers obedience. When we are obedient, the blessings flow to those around you as well. Your church, home, children, job. Blessings will flow to everything that is connected to you, even strangers. Be obedient. Reap the blessings.
  • Verse 45 shows us that faith makes things possible. Believing that God will do what He said is key! Our words create our world. Imagine the world that you would create for yourself if you spoke and stood on the Word of God and believed God is truly able to do EVERYTHING. What would happen if we stood on His Word and didn’t allow people or things to shift our thoughts from Him? Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God. The more we read, the more our faith will come alive. Use your faith to change your life and access your blessings.

Johns life was predestined while in His mothers womb. But because His father was obedient, he was now able to walk out his purpose in life. This probably wouldn’t have been if He was named anything else. There is purpose attached to you. Once you accepted Christ into your life, you became a new creature in Him. Your old self was put off and you were made new. Now Christ’s name is attached to you and His power is in you. You can walk confidently in your purpose.

Moral of the story? Be obedient to the voice of God. ❤️

Tell me, what did you take from the story written in Luke 1? I would love to hear. Please comment. 😊

What will you do? It’s your choice. 

Can I be honest? Today was a day I had to choose to hold on to Jesus. Yes, choose. We have a choice to trust God and His word or not trust.  When we trust, we wholeheartedly believe that God sees us and hears us when we make our request known to Him. Our choice to trust Him in the midst of the storm builds endurance and faith. When we choose not to trust, our storm seems to be a bit longer. Why? Because we now have taken our focus off of the King and placed our vision on what is going on. Instead of worshipping, we whine and complain. We look at other people’s lives and compare. When we get out of the posture of worship, our problems aggressively pounce on us leaving us feeling defeated, worried, stressed, anxious, and overwhelmed. But when we stay in the posture of prayer and worship, we are renewed. We are given peace, joy, and endurance to keep us going. We are now depending on God and His infinite power to see us where we are and save us as His Word says He does. When we worship, it shifts our lives and causes it to align with Christ. Our worship produces change. Our worship keeps us sane. Our worship draws us closer to our Creator. When we are this close to Him, we have no choice but to focus on Him and His greatness. Our problems can’t live in His presence. 
So while you wait on the Lord, I encourage you to be of good courage and keep walking with the Lord. He is making a way for you even now. Trust Him and believe that He will come through. When He does, it’ll be right on time. Don’t give up. Don’t complain. Don’t compare. His glory will be shown. Remember, His thoughts and ways are above ours. We may not understand the delay, but we understand that God has our best interest at heart. He loves us. Don’t be weary in well doing. Trust God. ❤️


“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.”

‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭3:5‬ ‭KJV‬‬
“Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭27:14‬ ‭KJV‬‬
“And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.”

‭‭Galatians‬ ‭6:9‬ ‭KJV‬‬

“My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.”

‭‭James‬ ‭1:2-4‬ ‭KJV‬‬

This Thing Called Religion 

The only life that I want to live is a life that’s pleasing to Christ.One filled with malice, maliousiness, twofaceness, and hate just isn’t right. The life that I live on social media must match my reality. That’s important to me. Some say, Jess you take this thing to seriously. No, I act like this “thing” is important to me. I rather be known as the prayerful, loving, Jesus giving girl. Then the one that cursed someone without a care. Maybe if enough of us took this “thing” a little more seriously, the hurt and lost would be more willing to listen. But right now, all they see is the church being the world’s equal. Instead of the church without a spot or a wrinkle.
Give Jesus. The people need Him.