When Will It End? Part 1

I will praise Thee, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are Thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. Psalm 139:14 (KJV)

Your beauty, I created.

Me, your Lord.

But you choose to worship idols and claim to be flawed.

I can’t understand why you use this word.

You put My work down that I made.

You curse and flaunt your false beauty.

Creating a duplicate piece.

Remember that the duplicate never holds as much worth as the original masterpiece.

You hold yourself up to the next man or woman.

All the while, they look at you in the same manner.

When will it all stop.

When will you all see that your beauty can’t be reproduced.

I didn’t make them like you, nor did I make you them.

So stop throwing shade at yourself.

Putting yourself down.

Every time you do, I frown.

Why?

Because with every negative though, you come in agreement with the devil.

Who puts these idols and false Gods directly in front of you.

This is why so many are denying my gospel.

The hoop.

The holler.

The “dressed for the gawds”

And you look at Me for more income just to spend it on that Benz.

Your lights are off and your every bill is due.

Was it worth keeping up with the false Gods?

You claim to “put a praise on it” for your miracle to come.

But what you don’t know is that isn’t how I flow.

Get into My Word, my dear child.

Give it a rest.

I see you’re weary and Me, i’m unimpressed.

Realize that the abundant life I came to give you wasn’t for show.

I came hoping you’d carry My glow.

The abundant life has more to do with than just fame.

No, it’s falling to your knees and proclaiming My name.

“My glory will be shown through them”, was my first thoughts when I made you.

But you took that glory and now My Word is being fulfilled through you.

Not in the way that I wanted.

But men will be lovers of themselves.

Yeah, that part.

So how far will you go all in the name of fashion?

Your gaining this world and loosing your salvation.

How I Lived Without My Mommy For 14 Years

I remember the day my Mommy, Iris Mebane Phillips, passed away. I was beyond hurt. I was crushed. I was depressed. I didn’t want to live life. I suffered from heartache for many years. I cried and I cried some more.

But…enough of that! This isn’t a post that will make you cry. But I hope it’s one that will bring peace to your heart and a smile on your face. Because today I am rejoicing and loving the life I’m living. And this life is because “she left a prayer” for me.

What prayer?

I remember my Mommy always being a praying woman. She prayed about everything. She consulted God in everything. This is one of the reasons I’m a strong believer in prayer today. But, my Mommy prayed for me. And I remember my Dad telling me it was before I was born. It started off in the womb. They both laid hands on her belly and prayed over my life. This was the beginning. But not the prayer I want to focus on today. I want to focus on the prayer she left here for me when she left this earth at the age of 56. The year 2005. This prayer keeps me. This prayer holds me. This prayer lifts me. This prayer comforts me. This prayer watches over me. This prayer put women in place that would help me live this wonderful journey called life.

As I was in prayer on 12/25/2018, the prayer came to my heart. I don’t know the exact words of the prayer, but the Holy Spirit revealed to me that she prayed for me. Her prayer included me being surrounded by great women of God that are powerful and who will keep me lifted in prayer. That can give me wisdom. This prayer included me being in the hands of women who I trust and love and could honor them as my very own. This prayer included women who would adore me and and adopt me into their families as their own. This prayer included me walking as a giant in ministry. This prayer covers me and lives through the women who God placed in my life to love me.

Who are these women? (No particular order)

Carla T. West- Mother

Pastor Gwen Bowen- Mama

Pastor Marlena Daggs- Spiritual Mother

Rev. Verona Chin- Mom

Prophetess Annie Howard- God Mother

As I sat down in prayer on 12/25/2018, these women came to mind. Each of them hold a special place in my heart. Each of them pray for me daily. Each of them offer me wisdom and guidance. Each of them were placed in my life because of my Mommy. They are apart of the prayer left for me.

So, how have I lived without my Mommy for 14 years? I haven’t. She’s with me everyday. I see her through my actions, smile, or speech. I see her in my ministry. I hear her whisper “Jess-Jess” and “Pookie Pie”. And lastly, I see her through these 5 women who are in my life because she needed to make sure I was raised and given that motherly love since she wouldn’t be here to do it herself.

Mommy. Iris. My angel. My everything…I honor you today and forever. I will continue to live in Christ and represent the kingdom. I will continue to move in God. I will continue to carry the mantle you left in my hands, for His glory. I LOVE YOU!!

Thank you for being a praying woman! ❤️

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOMMY!!!!!

All Things Mean All Things

Quick story: I was asked to do something and do not have the know how at all to do it. I began to feel overwhelmed. I sat down and God reminded me that I can do all things through Him. So because I have Him, I have access to His God given wisdom. I asked how, and He literally walked me through the process. So is there anything we can’t do? I don’t think so! We limit ourselves and train ourselves to think we can only do so much. Remove the labels you’ve placed on yourself and watch God do the impossible through you.

A special thanks to my sister for the conversation and confirmation.


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Can You Hear Him Now?

As I was riding in the car with a 4 year, His little eyes spotted a Toys R Us.

“Toys R Us”, he screams.

I responded with, “I see it. But it’s closed.”

He says, “No, they will open on Sunday.”

I let him know that they aren’t open anymore and won’t open again. He would not accept what I was saying. Here I am, older and wiser trying to explain the cause of Toys R Us closing. He still didn’t want to hear me. How often do we cut God off. Here He is with His infinite power and great wisdom. But we act like we know it all. We insist on getting our point across and block out what God is saying. If we can just get in our heads that God’s ways are higher than our ways and His thoughts are higher too. He knows things that we don’t. Way more! So the next time God try’s to tell you something, listen. He’s speaking now. Are you listening?


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The Beauty of Thanksgiving

As I was reading through Ephesians 5 this morning, this verse jumped out at me:

“Nor should there be obscenity, foolish talk or coarse joking, which are out of place, but rather thanksgiving.”

‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭5:4‬ ‭NIV‬‬

I had to stop and pause. I reread. I broke it down. And this is what the Lord allowed me to see. While He showed me what I’m about to share with you, He revealed myself to me and what I need to do.

1. Let all obscene behavior, foolish talk, and coarse joking go.

Why? Because these things aren’t the character of God. When we accepted Christ as our Lord and Savior, we put on His character. The old me/you passed away. So we no longer live according to our flesh, but the Spirit.

2. Don’t hang around those who act and talk in such a way.

Why? Because 1 Corinthians 15:33 tells us that bad company corrupts good character. So if we am hanging with someone who practice these things, they will contaminate our character. Our Spirit, if not strong enough, will be contaminated too.

3. Partake in the beauty of Thanksgiving.

Why? Thanksgiving sets an atmosphere of praise. When we are thanking God, we are thinking on everything He has done for us. In return, we offer praises to Him. We are putting a smile on His face by partaking in the beauty of Thanksgiving. Since we are choosing to eliminate the things that don’t please Him (obscenity, foolish talk, and coarse joking) and act out the things that do (thanksgiving), we are living a thriving life and on the road of righteousness. And this road leads to Heaven.


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If Patience Is A virtue, I Need It To Flow.

Patience. That’s something that needs to be given to others as well as yourself. Today, as I was going through my day, I encountered a few things that pulled at my patience. So what did I do? I pulled on God. Why? Because He reminded me how to offer patience. There are moments when I push His EVERY button. I fail to listen. I throw temper tantrums. I ignore Him. But in all of that, He’s STILL patient with me. So as I went through my day, He helped me deal with myself by reminding me of how He deals with me. In the end it was a success. And I offered myself patience that I needed.


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Where’s My KitKat Bar?

Ever need a break during a frustrating, pull your hair out moment? Yeah, me too. Actually, I just had one of those moments. Within the past 2 weeks things have changed in my life. Not for the bad, but the things that are happening due to the change can be frustrating. I’m learning people while learning myself. Sounds overwhelming, huh? Well, it can be if I do this within myself. But when I want to just scream and run away, God reminds me that I can do all things through Him. All I have to do is take His hand and let Him walk me through the somewhat difficult moments. When I do, I can feel the tension ease, and my heart beat slowly decreases. A smile invades my face and I feel stronger. And the plus side? I keep all of my hair. Lol. So when you find yourself needing a break in the midst of frustration, grab ahold Jesus’ hand. And walk with Him.


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He Knows My Name

I’m in one of my moods where I want to talk, but I don’t have anything to say. So who do I call? And when I call will they answer? What will we talk about? These are a few questions that run through my head. I wanted to interact without the interaction. Is that possible? Lol. But I heard a voice as I was trying to figure out my life.

“Me”

It was so soft and gentle. Sure I had spent time with Christ today. But He clearly wanted more of me. And who better to chat with and can handle my current mood than Christ?

I whispered back, ” You want to spend time with me?”

He responds, “I do.”

It was so unexpected yet expected. He knows my heart. He knows my desires. He knows how to deal with me. God knows what makes me smile.

So I say “peace out” to the world to say “hello” to my Savior.


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Prolonged Seasons

My twin and I were talking about life and the topic of seasons came up. You can read all about seasons in Ecclesiastes 3:1-11. We both agreed that it’s important to know what season you are in. And if we have the ability to prolong a season (read about the children of Israel in Exodus 16), don’t we have the ability to shorten the length of a season by truly getting what God has for us in the time He needs us to get it? Now, don’t try and play God and say, “Yes, Jesus I got it. You can move me now.” Because He knows our end from our beginning. He knows the story of our lives. He knows if He can truly release us from one season to allow us to enter into a new one. So what are you holding up by procrastinating, you can release by doing what you’re putting off (ie. Forgiveness, good stewardship, positive attitude, etc). What you are holding up by being disobedient, you can release by being obedient . What you hold up by being out of order, you can release by getting in order. The length of the season you are in can very well be determined by your attitude, willingness, and submission to God. Learn what you need to learn and move on. It’s like being in school. Once you learn and pass a class, they promote you to the next grade. If you fail to complete assignments, fail tests, and don’t put the work in, you have to repeat the class or grade. Put the work into this season you are in and propel yourself to the next season. It’s up to you. May Gods will be done in your life.


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A question I get asked often.

Q: How did you become so consistent in your walk with Christ?

A: I was tired of living in sin. I knew I didn’t want to go to Hell, but I was living a “trash” life. I had to decide which was more important:

Please God or please flesh?

I knew that if I lived according to my desires any longer, I would die and my life would have been lived in vain. So I decided to move forward in Him.

But please know that I didn’t have to choose between “please God or please flesh” one time. This is a daily decision. I (or all children of God) have to choose between Spirit and flesh, good or evil, blessings or curses on a daily basis. I just choose to walk in Christ. I lived my life on my own before and it was TRASH! I can’t afford to live in sin and please my fleshy desires. It’s not worth it. My soul and salvation isn’t with it. I have one goal in mind and that’s to make it to heaven with as many people going with me as I can take!


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