I didn’t fully grow to love myself until I grew in Christ. It wasn’t until I learned His word that I stopped believing and relying on the words of people. I so often held onto people’s words. Looked for that compliment. Reached to be seen. People pleased to be liked. Dressed to be noticed. Put down others to feel better. Avoided me because it was too hurtful. Too hurtful to deal with my insecurities. Too “complicated” to figure out how I could change. Too deep to start caring about others. Too numb to even care.
When I finally made up in my mind that I wanted more of Jesus, the deliverance started to take place. When I seeked Him more, my attitude changed. The more I read His word, the more I lived His word. My thoughts changed. My walk changed. My talk changes. Soon I began to look in the mirror and love what I saw. Soon I began to believe. Believe what He said about me. No longer did I need the words of people to validate me. Nope! I was free. Free from broken relationships. Free from selfishness. Free from pain. Free from shame. Free from hurt. Free from the feeling of not being enough. Free from ME!