God said “go” & I said “no thank You”

You ever have that moment in life when you feel like God is literally pushing you to do something and be something you just aren’t ready to do or be? Well, I am currently living this moment…it’s called growth. It all started three years ago when God said “go”.  I said “no thank You. not now”.  Again, I heard “Go”. and my response was “no”. Mighty bold of me, huh? Yes, I know. Some nerve I had!  But thank God for His grace and mercy!! After hearing Him say “GO” the third time, I reluctantly packed my car with all of my belongings, left my world, and drove 600 miles just to end up in the unknown.

Once I arrived at my destination, I unpacked my vehicle, sat on the edge of my bed, and started crying.  I mean balling like a baby!  I had no idea what was happening and WHY this was happening.  I had put on a front for most of my friends and family and acted like this was an awesome opportunity, but now while I alone, the pressure of all that had just taken place (all within a month might I add) overwhelmed me. Questions filled my head…Had I heard God correctly? What have I done? What is going on with my life?

I was 26 working a good job, with good benefits, had my own apt and car, wonderful friends, attending church regularly, trying to grow in my walk with Christ.   (*pause* as I wrote the last sentence, God showed me that the details of the sentence actually listed, in order, my priorities at the time. Wow! Yes, I put Christ on the back burner way too many times.) Anyway, I had more going on in between these things that I may or may not address in future posts.  But all in all, I was pleased with my life and as I think about it now, I understand every question that flooded my mind as I sat on the edge of the bed.

Little did I know, this move would be the second best decision that I made in life.

FYI…deciding to live my life for Christ was the first.

Stay tuned. To be continued…



If you’re reading this and you don’t know Jesus as your personal Lord and Savior, there’s no better time like the present to invite Him into your heart and life. If you’d like to do this now, genuinely and sincerely pray this prayer…

Lord Jesus,
I truly believe that You are the Son of God. I confess that I have sinned against You and cannot save myself. Please forgive my wrongdoing and let me live in a relationship with You from now on. I receive You as my personal Savior and believe that You have died for my sins, was resurrected from the dead and are alive and can hear my prayers. I invite You to rule in my life and in my heart from this day forward. Help me to live a life that is pleasing to You. Thank You for saving me.
In Jesus’ name,

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